The inspirations to Peru.

Starting from the very beginning.  A little history of our evolution as a couple and desires for enlightenment in the way of natural healing. 
As many of our close family and friends know, Sean and I have been on a path of unconventionalisum for quite some time now, pretty much since the day we were wed. This path not being intentional as it began has deeply developed over the years. It has led us to open our hearts to many different cultural and spiritual healing practices we once never knew excised. One of these
healing practices we are especially drawn to is the beautiful and deeply transformational medicine ceremony of the Native American Lakota Sioux tribe. We've also been drawn to cranial sacral therapy, body talk, kinesiology and other healing works that target the mind, body and spirit energetically.

Over the course of our own personal healing, addressing what stands in our way of connecting deeply as a couple, surrendering ourselves to each other in the most vulnerable of ways and helping each other catch glimpses our greatest selves and highest potential, we have begun to feel an unbreakable bond to each other that seems only we can understand.  A feeling of piece, unconditional support and an "all in" type of willingness to help each other fulfill our wildest fantasies. A sacred feeling within that we share for each other that need no words and no explanation. In an effort to cultivate this divine spark between us, a new and sacred vow has been sworn to each other. A vow of willingness to validate the needs we both project on each other, to accept and love those needs in a safe place no matter the depth, pain or uncertainty they can conjure up and finally to help each other bring those needs to the transformative power of the universe which to us at this time was Heavenly father and Mother.  As we honor these vows of validation and healing, we sometimes put helping each other fulfill our wildest fantasies on the back burner.  At this time in our lives, a true tale of seeking and realizing the fantasy of a Peruvian adventure comes alive. 

As Sean and I continue to look deeper at ourselves and struggle to strike balance between raising a happy, fulfilled family, serving others, honoring ourselves and trying desperately to find peace, we try to keep our minds and hearts open to inspiration that might help us along the way. Sean in particular has had an overwhelming, practically magnetic draw to the healing and energetic nature of the shamans, plants and spirituality of the indigenous Peruvian people of the rain forest, the Amazon jungle. I've known in my heart that someday when we had enough money and resources that we would travel to the Peruvian Jungles and explore it's plant healing, spiritual enlightening and symbolism of mother earth, nature and the creator. In the past year of Sean’s reading and learning of these things, never in my wildest dreams did I think the time would be NOW! My thoughts were of scary tarantulas, snakes, and what I fear the most which is the 'unknown'. I thought when our children are older, a nanny or family member could come with us to help out, hopefully a lot of money at our disposal allowing us to stay in top notch places and a house in our native land to come home to, then and only then would I embark on this trip. 

However when the company Sean started with his brother and partners was recently bough out, we found ourselves once again asking "now what???" We're once again at square one. Sean would start an idea from scratch with his dad and brother and move forward as far as it would take us, regardless if the actual idea had anything to do with what Sean truly feels passionate about or something he wants to contribute from his heart to the world. This life style left Sean feeling unhappy and out of sink with the possibilities of his true potential that must be deep within him. One night sitting in bed, both of us talking and wondering about what we should do now, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I belted out "lets sell everything we own and move to Peru!" Sean just laughed and said "Ok let’s go to sleep and see if you still feel that way in the morning." I'm not surprised in his assuming that this was just a passing though that would diminish the second we looked at the reality and undertaking something like this would really be. I have been known be quite flighty in my crazy ideas as well. However this was not a passing thought. Something that night sparked in me that was as deep rooted as a tree. It was as if the same force drawing Sean to learn of these things was also shifting something inside of me too. I feel the only way my mind and fears of such a trip, have been so dramatically shifted, was because something divine intervened.

As the next few weeks rolled on, I couldn't shake these thoughts and so we continued to delve deeper and deeper into what it would take. I felt as though Sean was completely inspired to have had the desire to learn these healing ways and to hopefully experience them someday. If we are first healed and at peace we can then be the best examples and teaches to our children as well as reach out to help others find a way of healing. This is our ultimate goal as parents and Sean's of being a tool of healing in the world. I realized that there was no reason to wait years for such a thing to happen. I began to feel that my mind had so miraculously changed because it was my job as his wife to push him to go forward with what he's passionate about. As I did so, it became passionate to me as well! The more we entertained the idea, the more it came alive. Each night while the kids were sleeping we began to make list upon list of things we needed to look up. My first list ever was almost fully comprised of variables affecting the children. Amongst the health and safely precautions, adjustments, lifestyle change, and mental well being, of the children, we concluded that as long as Sean and I stay as balanced as we can and connected to each other, that he kids would feel balanced and connected as well. They'll feed off our energy and emulate it as they already do here at home. As long as we the parents are lovingly united on this endeavor we think our children will feel peaceful and safe. To add to that, we feel that as young and as easily adaptable children are, they will probably learn Spanish before we do, connect with the culture and soak in the history and learning like sponges. Its an opportunity I think many would dream of giving their children. As we worked on the idea as if it was already going to happen, things just kept falling into place! People we have never met started popping into our lives full of information and help regarding Peru. Weather they had once lived in Peru, had a family member who did, had great contacts to share, could set us up with an amazing driver and so forth, in every way the universe is abundant and was continually providing! When we made our intentions clear and move forward with them assuming they're on their way to fruition, it’s as if everyone and everything out there in line with that energy or frequency were attracted to us. We continued to feel inspired to talk to the right people at the right time, and we couldn't deny the blessings that were showering down. It was undeniable at this point, we new that our little family would sell all that we have, our car, our cloths, toys, furniture, everything in our small rental apartment and use the money to spend as long as we could living in a foreign land, learning all about what it is that drew us there in the first place, what further purpose there might be, exploring a culture so full of history, deep rooted tradition and connecting deeply as a family. We see it as a once in a lifetime adventure that we will never regret. We don’t know what awaits us in the future, where home will be after this adventure, or even where new income will be started, but we do have faith that it will all work out as it should. All the questions we've been asked about this life changing decision have yet to be answered but we hope by reading this you now have a deeper understanding of what has brought us here. We also hope this blog speaks to your soul in a ways that may inspire you to fallow your hearts as well.